So as I wrote the last time I joined The Supreme Sound course with Simrit. During the first couple weeks of that I started recording a lot of music. Some of them turned out okay and I’m planning to re-record them soon. I’ve recently shared a first draft of one on my facebook page.
In addition to that I opened up my healing arts space. I write about it on my facebook page too, all apart of the same thing.
I’ve been reading a fair amount and I edited some of my poetry and sent about 6-8 pieces to my dad for father’s day. He is my biggest supporter and he hasn’t read anything I’ve written in a while, so that was nice.
I also found a poet I really like who has decided to trade reading/critiquing pieces with me.
I’m dancing again and should be teaching soon. Now I just need to write more, record some spoken word and find my way back into acting & performing(which I’m in talks to begin).
Poetry was probably my first love. I wrote songs first but that was because I didn’t know I could write poetry. I love music, but I was a musician out of necessity. I still love music but I want to do it from a poetic perspective.
I have a writing group that I’ve been a part of for many years, but I’ve barely written in the group in the past year. However this poetry month I have written a lot of poetry. I have been feeling a deep stirring within to record my poetry, spoken word style.
I also have a great idea for a poetry zine or chapbook. I’ve started writing about my own sexual trauma. In the past those poems have stirred a lot of good feedback in my work, but I’m writing from a different place now.
One thing I’m doing this month is joining Secrets of Supreme Sound with Simrit Kaur Khalsa, who I met during my yoga teacher training 10 years ago. I’ve loved seeing her music evolve and gain so much respect and success over the years and I know she truly has a gift.
In addition to that I’ve joined a Visibility Club for creating live events. And I’ve started my Secrets of Femininity Course and I’m working on practicing guitar and trying to write and read poetry as much as possible.
The Aniweda Dream is a dream I had that opened me up to new possibilities and new powers within myself. It was something that I knew was brewing somewhere deep inside and a for a brief period of my life I lived it. When it was over I knew it was something I had to write about and keep connected with and so this blog was born.
I’ve been absent from writing on this blog for the better part of 3 years I’d say, because I’ve been out there trying to integrate this experience into my current life and I was too close to it. Then something came over me..a desperation to solve my major issues and I joined The Pleasure Tribe last year following The Red Tent Revival.
The Red Tent Revival is happening again right now and I have seen how freaking crazy far I’ve come and it’s amazing. Here the top things I have learned from Red Tent Revivals and The Pleasure Tribe.
- How to say no. I’ve always been a people pleaser, but learning to say no is something I knew I needed, but didn’t know how to make this decision, now I know.
- How to heal from sexual trauma. This is the main reason I joined the Pleasure Tribe, being raped pushed me back 50 paces or 10 years in the past. I had a lot to heal and I knew it was affecting all my relationships.
- How to pick romantic partners and feel empowered in dating. This goes back to the last point. I thought I should be dating. I had a feeling there was something I wanted from these experiences but I didn’t know what and so I felt lost, confused, frustrated and indecisive about it. Now I don’t.
- How to listen deeper to my intuition and trust it. I’ve always been a deeply intuitive person, but I don’t always follow my intuition. As a matter of fact I have defied my intuition many times and went through unnecessary chaos because of it. Essentially the reason this part of me improved was the community of women in the Pleasure Tribe. I was already very experienced in intuitive growth but being validated changed it all for me.
- How to enjoy my body more. Just yes. Body image, better sleep, feeling good while walking, dancing, etc.
- How to understand and forgive myself. Like I said I’ve made lots of mistakes, usually knowing that I was doing so, simply ignoring my intuition. Now I have a deeper understanding of how my mind and hormones work and I feel good about all the painful moments of my life now.
- How to know the difference between a safe and dangerous man. This is so important. A dangerous person can ruin your life and it can be very hard to dig yourself out of that whole. I’m confident that I can see the difference now and that makes me feel okay with myself out in the world, rather than hiding and avoiding all men.
- How to heal my relationships in my family. This is huge, but I learned a lot about men and women, masculinity and femininity and a lot of my relationships have grown exponentially since I’ve been in the Pleasure Tribe.
I had training in masculine/feminine balance and relationships when I was really young, but I didn’t have the context to “walk the talk”. Because the Pleasure Tribe and reaching my 30’s(probably) I now understand the things I learned a decade before and so much more. If you’re interested there’s two days left to get the free content so join now: Here or Here.
The Red Tent Revival is changing the world.
Wow, it’s been forever!
I’m not sure where to start, but something called me back to this blog! It’s been calling for awhile but I finally answered. I’ve been through a ton since I last posted. I guess I have some refining to do, because although a lot of the things I wrote about here are still relevant there is a different vibe and different level of interest and commitment.
If anyone is still reading you’ll know what I mean soon, because I’m going to be using this blog to help me create my creative projects. I have been working on my other two websites and they’ve been kicking my butt, but it’s time to jump back into the creativity pool and dive deep.
My goals for this year are:
- To finish the project called Featherstory (a book, at the least, might also record it)
- To finish the project called The Aniweda Dream (not the blog, this will never be finished)
- To create tons of spoken word
- To create my one-woman-show
- To have one reviewable/critique-ready ‘something’ every week
- To supplement my writing by delving back into dance
- To supplement my writing and dance by delving back into music
- To supplement my writing, dance and music by trying my hand at mandalas, paper crafts and fiber arts
- To consume a whole lot of art…this has never been an issue for me anyway!
- To get deeper into dreaming!
On Feb. 14th I will do something special to commemorate and log this new commitment to creativity!